Johnny's hand moves to take César's, lightly turning his hand palm up. He unbuttons the cuff of his dress shirt, and then just plays his fingertips in light circles on the inside of his forearm.
Nothing more than that, no nails, barely any pressure. But clearly a demonstration.
César's quiet and pliant, watching with curiosity as Johnny takes his hand and unbuttons the cuff of his shirt. What is he doing? It's... so unexpectedly intense near the wrist that César shifts slightly, but the further Johnny moves from that, the less intense it is.
It's almost tickling but not quite. He looks in awe. It's... a different sort of intimacy? César swallows, but he's most certainly not pulling away.
"I almost want to test how sensitive each part of your body is, to build a map of your nerves and understand what every light touch is going to do to you. Methodically. Carefully. How does that make you feel?"
His voice is simply a whisper, and he smiles as he suggests that.
César looks up smoothly from where Johnny's touching him, and then he smiles warmly, voice dropping to match. "That... sounds really nice. And it'd really help with figuring out what accommodations I need." A bit of a laugh. "My wrist's sensitive, almost too much."
“Important information to know if the idea of bondage ever comes into play, that.” Look, that was something César had come up with first. Johnny’s just working the logistics of that in his mind.
"Do you want to take off your shirt so I can move higher, or should I stay right here and explore this area more thoroughly?" He's happy either way, especially knowing it's making the brain quiet down. The hand that's not playing over César's skin is still holding onto the hand, and he leans in to give the palm a gentle kiss.
"Of course, my love." So he lingers, but he does start to vary the touch a little, going from stroking in circles to gentle taps like raindrops falling on César's skin. Still no nails, just something a little different for variety.
Look, if César is interested in extended foreplay and exploring touch, he's going to get just that here.
César's utterly fascinated that this does something for him. 'My love' sends a little thrill through him, as always. He lets out a sigh and leans back to relax against the headboard, becoming boneless. This is strangely easy to focus on, allowing him to stay awake instead of napping.
It's such a simple thing, the touches. The acquiescing of control. Yet, warm and comfortable. Loving.
"English doesn't have a strong enough form of 'I love you' for me to communicate my feelings for you. I cherish you. I delight in you. I bask in the warmth of your smile. And I very much wish to spend more moments like this with you."
He sees the bonelessness of his partner, his smile growing almost triumphant. César had approached thinking his needs would be upsetting, but he's doing a good job of demonstrating that it's not just about the sex.
He's going to get a good grade in boyfriending, something which is both healthy to want and possible to achieve.
It's progress, how a such strong statement brings a softened, warm smile but doesn't bring overly grateful tears. "Ditto."
He laughs, clear and bright. It's silly to say the truth that way. But his smile really already says everything.
"You can say it back, if you want. Spanish is spoken all over the world." César adds after his laughter fades. "And you've already been speaking it with saying my name."
Johnny will win awards from César for how well he's demonstrating that this is not just about sex. That's just one form of intimacy, and intimacy is what César desires most of all. Being able to place his soul safely in the hands of another is one of the greatest gifts he could ever receive.
It's entirely worth the effort, and it quickly becomes clear why. For a moment, César looks shocked as a surge of unexpected emotions-thoughts-associations-memories surge through his brain. Then César smiles again, wobbly, as his eyes so full of love develop blurred vision and leaks.
He opens his mouth to try to explain but cannot find words, and can hardly find air.
Johnny lets go of César's arm, that hand moving to cup his face instead, thumb gently stroking his cheek, those tears. No, an explanation is hardly necessary here. He loves knowing how he can move this man to such great emotion. He loves being in the presence of such powerful feelings.
Johnny brushing away tears makes César's heart fill near to bursting. Enough that he has to do more than just sit there.
César leans slowly forward to kiss Johnny's lips gently without dislodging his hand, then rests their forehead together, eyes now closed. "I forgot then remembered... it's been over a year."
Since he last had heard those words. Since he wondered if he would ever be loved again. But now he has his answer.
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Date: 2022-07-17 03:46 am (UTC)Nothing more than that, no nails, barely any pressure. But clearly a demonstration.
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Date: 2022-07-17 03:59 am (UTC)It's almost tickling but not quite. He looks in awe. It's... a different sort of intimacy? César swallows, but he's most certainly not pulling away.
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Date: 2022-07-17 04:03 am (UTC)His voice is simply a whisper, and he smiles as he suggests that.
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Date: 2022-07-17 04:13 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2022-07-17 09:37 pm (UTC)A little laugh, squeezing the hand holding his. "I think... maybe getting undressed could be part of this? But touch here for now."
It's nice. He doesn't want to interrupt it yet. A warm blanket around his brain.
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Date: 2022-07-17 10:21 pm (UTC)Look, if César is interested in extended foreplay and exploring touch, he's going to get just that here.
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Date: 2022-07-17 11:16 pm (UTC)It's such a simple thing, the touches. The acquiescing of control. Yet, warm and comfortable. Loving.
"Te amo."
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Date: 2022-07-18 06:37 pm (UTC)He sees the bonelessness of his partner, his smile growing almost triumphant. César had approached thinking his needs would be upsetting, but he's doing a good job of demonstrating that it's not just about the sex.
He's going to get a good grade in boyfriending, something which is both healthy to want and possible to achieve.no subject
Date: 2022-07-18 08:56 pm (UTC)He laughs, clear and bright. It's silly to say the truth that way. But his smile really already says everything.
"You can say it back, if you want. Spanish is spoken all over the world." César adds after his laughter fades. "And you've already been speaking it with saying my name."
Johnny will win awards from César for how well he's demonstrating that this is not just about sex. That's just one form of intimacy, and intimacy is what César desires most of all. Being able to place his soul safely in the hands of another is one of the greatest gifts he could ever receive.
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Date: 2022-07-20 05:10 pm (UTC)It's hard, to force the Spanish words past the translation effect on the ship. But it feels so very entirely worth it.
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Date: 2022-07-20 08:57 pm (UTC)He opens his mouth to try to explain but cannot find words, and can hardly find air.
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Date: 2022-07-20 09:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-07-21 03:22 am (UTC)César leans slowly forward to kiss Johnny's lips gently without dislodging his hand, then rests their forehead together, eyes now closed. "I forgot then remembered... it's been over a year."
Since he last had heard those words. Since he wondered if he would ever be loved again. But now he has his answer.